Unconditional Reciprocal

See.

a terrible thing that you hate to believe

but know is true

You see a big piece of the real me

and it disgusts you

And I laugh, because I'm peeking out from a semi-enclosed two way mirror

The rest is so much worse than you know

And I hate it, so, i guess i hate myself

And I've debated, whether defense is needed

you don't see it

You ignore it

There is so much you don't know

The reason why I'll always be alone

No one is so strong to ignore themselves until the end

to throw themselves off a bridge when they hardly know how to swim

well i never learned what to expect
a reciprocal?

Nonsense, for I have the breaking point of diamond

I learned to swim as a dog does

when its master falls through the ice

It knows that its food and shelter is floating off in the water

and this pushes him to save a life.

pay attention to his true intention.

I have the curse of seeing my flaws

My humanity bites

like a Venus flytrap in a pigpen

and looks just as ugly

i want a lot of things

I just need someone to love me

as unconditionally as I love them.