Atonement

I'm irate

at being upset

Angry

for the intent

That I have,

that I would

never

pull you up

if falling off a cliff

Any faith that I had

Stolen

and its sad

Because you were going

to be a friend

Instead

growing lanes of greenhouse heat-traps

Venus

I want my Athena

beginning to see the

drawbacks of erring on the end of good

The spoils

go to the meanest

the one with least will

to be decent

A system

I know

I created it

four years ago

to escape a torrential depression

the deepest

I guess you need it

to outjump that curb behind your feet

Maybe

I'm projecting my problems, berating

onto you

Maybe

you did what I've been unable

to do

Maybe

my inferiority complex

is driving me crazy

Maybe

my drive

is just me overcompensating

Lately

you've been on the rampage

someone took your lady

you just stick and move

Ali's fighting style encapsulated

Lately

I've had to see ugliness

In my paradigm of beauty

I've had to live Praying,

abstaining, understating

and I go to sleep

with the intention

of seeing my desires ideally

all I can see is you two

on screen

laughing in and at my dreams

and you can do what you want

sleep with my best friend

its just a taunt

a test

Of everything I've built

my atonement

for everything I've wraught

everything I've loved

everyone I've hurt

caught in your shell

huddled up

all determined

to bring me back to hell